I made the decision to just let things roll with Cyrus and so far, he's been more open to me in terms of sharing things from his personal life. I also make him want my hugs not that I don't want his, I just don't reach to hug first. There are great things happening for him, and I wonder how they are going to affect things between us. For now all I do know is not to put too much hope on it. However, it still feels good to write it down and read it over and over again. He is finally moving out of his ex's house. He is going to be on his own living in his friend's basement and it's somewhere in Newark, so that's a lot closer to me, although Newark is quite big, so we"ll see. For a man that has so many issues with the Law and his Mother he's slowly coming back up starting with giving up on cigarettes and now doing things like getting an apartment. I should of listened when he told me about wanting his independence and that all his life he did nothing exciting and so on. I really feel like a jerk for not being more patient and putting my own needs before listening to what he was trying to tell me. I should of done this yesterday but we talked so much i punched back in late on my break and lunch from so much talking, he was so excited about the move and talking about taking his cat and so on, I didn't want to stop him. Saturday however I won't pass up the opportunity to tell him how proud I am of him, hug and squeeze him and kiss his cheek. [for some reason makes him blush, as if he never felt that deep emotion of caring from someone before me.] and I need to do that..not be so suffocating but yet still let him know..I am here for you!!!
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