Changing things between Cyrus and I, it's proving to be a hard task but nothing in life is easy so I just got to take it one step at a time. Today was successful, I tried to take different aisles where he wasn't working and he said good morning I replied back, nice and simple not turning just acknowledging the greeting. Followed the same strategy going in and out of breaks avoiding as much as possible. If i don't see him i don't have to act like a bitch and cold I just simply skip all those steps..which I hope soon it makes him wonder, what's going on. Of course if he doesn't react, I guess I won't be surprised and it will be easier to move on. This was just today though, there is a whole new week coming up and let's see if I can keep up with this whole avoiding thing. The need for his hugs, kisses and listening to his voice is so strong, but I have have to be tougher or else this circle will never end.
On a refreshing change, I finally picked up the phone to make some actual phone calls and today I decided to call Sancho and oh my goodness was it awesome to hear a familiar voice. She's doing pretty good with a boyfriend and still doing the Marine thing.[Sis, you should def give her a call, she would love to hear from you.] We talked of the past and the present and she had a lot of advice to give me and I was really glad to call a good old friend. Among other things that I'm going to do to distract and keep myself occupied from Cyrus, is calling people I haven't heard from in a long awhile. Also update a little more on here and let my emotions out. When I write, I always feel a lot better because for some reason I don't hold back, I just write down exactly what I'm thinking without editing.
Mom is going to Portugal for a month starting on the 7th of this month..so that means I'll have the house to myself most of the time but also means I might not be able to go out that much, considering I always tell my mom everything and than let her tell my dad lol..so we will see how things go, but if anything I guess I can have company over during the time that my dad is not around.
Something my sis and alex might be proud of..after some down time and ignoring Cyrus becomes a routine and slowly fades out of my life; I'm going to get back in the game. Oh because it sure felt good to get hit on at the mall, in the club and my job by another coworker..and i better start coming up with the courage to get some digits because this girl is dying down and that can not happen!
[this is like very all over the place kind of writing but believe or not I haven't written down in forever so eventually I'll get back to my norm. "I hope!"]
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THATS WHATS UP! SISTA BACK IN THE GAME!! lets see how many digits we can actually get....double dare!
that's screwed up double daring me and ish..argh..give me this week to gather myself.
you may not remember me.. but I was looking back 6 yrs ago, and you commented a lot on my blogs. so 6 yrs later.. Im saying hi :o)