Nothing much is going on. After my stunning bold move, all we done so far is a whole lot of making out, tiny arguments here and there but always making up afterwards. It's going a tad slow, and going with the flow has proven to be more torturing for me than I thought it would. Part of me wants to ask him, if this is all he wants or if we are going somewhere but he just needs time. The other part that's trying to go with the flow just wants to take it slow and let him make the moves. There is got to be a reason why he hasn't asked me out or to be his girl. I just don't know what to think anymore.

On another note, my wonderful mother is really thinking of going to Portugal so that means little old me can't get her apartment quite yet. I can't leave my dad by himself. Besides the factor that money is tight and most of it is going to bills so i would have to ship in for food, the other factor is he can't even write out a check. Than there is laundry, cleaning, let's face it two men alone, it screams mess r' us. Anyway, it's not like i got a relationship where i want to be alone with my man or they don't give me freedom for me to want my own apartment that badly, but it would be nice if next year i celebrated my birthday bash at my own place argh..maybe it will happen. Maybe mom will go next month and come back before the year ends. That's a slim chance though.

One small dilemma I have at the moment is do I wait for my contract to end on my phone before switching to another company or do I switch without waiting? Will I have to pay termination fee if I switch almost at the end of the contract? If I don't terminate it and let it end out will the service continue or do i call on the day it will end to say i don't want their service anymore? Can you transfer your service to another company and keep your number without paying termination fees on the other company? Just want to hear some of your opinions because I want a new service and most of all in my name and I don't mind getting a different number even though this number that i got goes back to like sophomore or junior year of high school, I think they let you keep your number but again won't i have to transfer services still. I just don't want to get stuck paying a brand new phone/service and than having to also pay a termination fee by the other company. I don't quite remember how it all works.

Bold Move #2

Before I get into bold move number two, I must mention number one.

Clubbing with the gang and i hook up my sista with a dance with the guy she was eyeing the whole night. His buddy was around, basically messing up her game so i snatched his buddy while sista had a chance to put her moves on her eye candy. Delicious night it was, and a memorable one, right sis?

Now number two; I thought about it many many times and I had imagined it so clearly but I was always afraid to do it. Today, I was actually a tad angry at Cyrus because while i was talking to him he just stared at another girl's ass, while i was right there in front of him. Yeah, I just said "oh no you just didn't do that." and left it at, not saying another word to him for the rest of the day.

We got off work at the same time, we were still arguing about the other chicks ass, ya da ya da he was worried that i was going to stay mad at him. We hugged it out, but I still gave him the eye. Than it happened I don't know what i was thinking, but i did it..

he wasn't looking i pulled him by his book bag and kissed him like no tomorrow.  He made an approving sound "hmm" while kissing me back, It felt so great, oh my god and he can kiss. If i had let him continue, he would of eventually pin me against the wall. I pictured it so many ways but that def was a perfect moment. I really didn't want to stop.

For once in my life I really am just going with the flow. I thought the kiss was going to be weird because he has a mustache and a beard and i remembered how it was when i kissed Andre, so I kind of feared it was going to be the same problem but nope, sigh..it was great. He's def. keeping it cool though, i got no call or text yet since we made out, but i'm not tripping, I'm off tomorrow and i'm not going to bother him either. I'm a girl in control, i think?!